You're wrong, you know? About happiness being a point system. You're basing everything on major events, and they have an effect, a big effect... But little things can make us happy too. A warm drink, made just the way you like it. Cuddling under a blanket on a warm day. Being licked to death by an excited puppy! A silly movie that makes you laugh. Being loved, having friends, knowing you're not alone. Knowing you're safe. All these things add up too, so you should include them as well!

You feel down now, I know you do. It's been a hard time for you so you don't have to force yourself or try to be happy for anyone else but yourself! But the thing is... you need to start with yourself. I mean, you need to work out who you are now and how to move forward after everything. It's a slow process, it won't happen all at once. But it will, I promise. When you can start thinking about the future you'll be able to smile easier! Happiness... is a funny thing. I think what you need the most right now is peace.