It's rather cold

The heat is on, but I feel cold. My eyes burn, and my stomach is twisting. I was a real jerk yesterday. I'm sorry, Tomo-chan. You were only being nice, and I threw it in your face. I'm rather selfish, when it comes down to it. I don't know if I'm able to go to that party you invited me to. I don't think I ever want to meet your Kaede. I'm sure she's lovely...but...

I guess that's the twisted side of me. The selfish brat. The bitch.

I've been so bitter this past week. As Christmas edges forward, I find myself envying everyone around me. I feel everyone just passing me by, bustling around me in pairs. I don't know why I'm so preoccupied with being lonely. It's tearing me apart. I just want to be precious to someone...Which is rather silly, because I know people do hold me dear. I'm just sad I snapped like that, I guess.