It's rather cold

[yukarinpop]

The heat is on, but I feel cold. My eyes burn, and my stomach is twisting. I was a real jerk yesterday. I'm sorry, Tomo-chan. You were only being nice, and I threw it in your face. I'm rather selfish, when it comes down to it. I don't know if I'm able to go to that party you invited me to. I don't think I ever want to meet your Kaede. I'm sure she's lovely...but...

I guess that's the twisted side of me. The selfish brat. The bitch.

I've been so bitter this past week. As Christmas edges forward, I find myself envying everyone around me. I feel everyone just passing me by, bustling around me in pairs. I don't know why I'm so preoccupied with being lonely. It's tearing me apart. I just want to be precious to someone...Which is rather silly, because I know people do hold me dear. I'm just sad I snapped like that, I guess.

Comments

[yukarinpop.livejournal.com]

Usually, I like your insistence.

I still shouldn't lash out at my friends.

[ryuukou-tomo.livejournal.com]

Okay, so when I push it, don't hesitate to tell me!

Mmm, you shouldn't. But the fact is, you recognised it's a flaw and that's one step closer to making it better :) And I can take it until you're feeling more like yourself again.

[yukarinpop.livejournal.com]

I won't.

You're right...you're so good to me...

[ryuukou-tomo.livejournal.com]

Not really~ Friends do that sorta thing. ....now I want to hug you, so whenever you're next free, you'd better come and see me, okay?

[yukarinpop.livejournal.com]

I will!